Anh se lam nhu vay ??!! Once more time u didnt understand me... Never ever u understand me ... I am not like that really... I also wanted , desired very much a happiness in all that in this life, i also desired to live happy like everybody , i also i could do all that like everybody do, i also wanted to change my thoughts my life , I also desired to have a life like everybody.... but i couldnt.... my family situation, my life, my childhood, all that happened to my life i couldnt forget, its a part to make me a person like this .I also desired and tried my best to change my life, i tried my best to learn, to work, to smile with all, to accept all without complaint. You knew that very well , i shared all about my life , my thoughts, my love to you. I desired to have a protect, a person who can understand me really, love and sympathize with me.....When i met you i dont know why i felt i couldnt live without you although i know you never love me, never interest in me ... I believed in you much, i desired a love from u, I shared with u all ... You said that I was selfish when angry always with u each time when u didnt reply my mails or messages ... Yes , i am so sorry you. But is it impossible if i felt worry or anxious or waitted for? or felt a lttle of jealous ...? Is it impossible when i love u ? I didnt?behave anything badly... Why u thought abt me bad like that... I am not a bad person, I also not a gal who are the same u thought and said. I also wanted to be joyful... I never want a sorrow life like this. U didnt understand me, u really are selfish when u always think for u only. Never ever u think for me. U are the only person who can make me change , the only person make me feel happy .I never need anything from u, not coz look, not coz of money, not coz of career, not coz of anything...just a love, a sympathy and understand together,?I loved u...I cant live without u.

U said u couldnt accept me ,even as a friend or a sister after all ? I am sorry you, I said so sorry you abt all. Coz i love u too much , i told u what they said to me abt u that u are a G, that all gossips abt you, Did i do wrong?... I told u abt my love gave to u...Did i do wrong? ... Now u said that i was a unnormal gal...Do u know that u insulted me ? I begged u for a forgive although i did nothing wrong. Always i thought and did all good things for u only. And now u insulted me. U said that u dont need a friend like me ...

I start feeling all is meaningless.... more and more i tried my best to look after for a love , to keep a good friendship .. but now all stops....

How i can talk with u again, how i can ? I am writting all this lines here in tears... U never know i have a blog in rediff, u never can know my feelings now.... how i can do now.... I just want to cry and cry out to beg God?can listen my words.

Pls dont leave me .

...............Thyjudeen / Thuy?